How many times does a butterfly blink
Before it learns to fly?
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
But how many will remain?
Even as I fly, you will still fall
You stood so close that I can hear you breathe
I am sorry I didn't keep hold of you
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Chy Suen 채스엔
You know what? You can't just loose your pretty smile, you have to live life in order to fulfill your goals. God did not give us everything, because He understood that people have to strive for what they want for the BEST RESULTS!
I have wonderful friends surrounding me, and I KNOW, that I can count on them with my life.
I am working hard for what i want (badly) - 8A for PMR! :)
Don't be a bitch - It will do no good to you. Just because you look tuff (cool), doesn't mean that you can earn a living with that.
Be someone nice - not too angelic. ♥
Wants.
♥ 8 A FOR PMR!!!!!!!!! (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! *crosses fingers*
♥ You, to visit my blog.
♥ For all my best friends to be around me!
♥ To have fun in life! :)
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I'm back. I'm not very proud of myself. I actually promised or maybe vowed to update my blog after the exams. But sadly I have been occupied with many things, like the Sivik Project I was supposed to finish and pass up one day before the official holidays started. I was quite disappointed in myself for not finishing this project on time, this will be my first then, which I hope to be the last time I ever need to carry out this sort of "sin".
My form 4 life has been pretty much hectic. Other than the increasing pile of homework in front of my table, or the mounting numbers of tuition homework and tuition, my life has been pretty much blank like an empty zero.
Exams are over. The mid terms are a nuisance. I lacked sleep for nearly three weeks, THREE WEEKS. I have to sacrifice at least an hour of sleep just to study. After studying so hard, I always have an after-feeling that I may screw up my whole exam. I wonder why. I think my paranoia for these things never seem to fade. Sigh, I guess it is either in my genes, or it is just my attitude. Doesn't sound a bit creepy?
Let's list down the sort of torture you have to go through, shall we?
1. Malay (I don't consider this a torture. But after I stepped into Form 4, I have ever-increasing worry for my Malay. Yes, this was my best subject for my three years in secondary school. I have never studied for Malay, not until this year where I broke my record. Plus, we didn't have a teacher for nearly two months, and she only came back a day before our exams. Wow, its like rubbing salt onto a wound.)
2. English (People say I don't have to worry about this. BUT YES I DO WORRY ABOUT THIS SUBJECT. There are superb writers in our school, and my essays are incompetent towards theirs. I have to brush up my skills. I want to be a polished diamond, not a dull, unpolished one. I will work hard for this.)
3. Chinese (Whee, what more torture can you ask for when you take Chinese. I'm not tarnishing my mother tongue here. My Chinese has been weak all the while, so I have no other person to put the blame on other than myself, not the subject. Oh well. Let's just hope I won't screw up my mid term paper.)
4. Chemistry (Oh I love this subject. It's straightforward and organized. A lot of people claim that girls are better in Chemistry then in Physics. This applies to me, but i don't think it is true, no evidence to prove so. Don't claim people! :P)
5. Biology (Yes, because of this subject, I do wonder sometimes why I took up the Science stream package. Somehow thanks to this subject, I ALWAYS WONDER WHY. So many terms, but i do love mitosis and enzymes though. The rest I don't know yet, since I haven't started reading/studying on it yet.)
6. Physics (Yay, torture above all torture. It is so easy to read this subject and think you understand it. Then, you will realize how stupid you are in physics when you do the exercises provided in the book. Tough, tough love with you, Physics. Oh and did I mention how much I am worried about my results for this subject?)
7. Moral (No comments. I just have to waste my brain capacity for this useless subject, for you get "charged" for not writing a key word, not even a keyword with similar meaning can help you get back that mark. Memorizing can help you be a moralized person, I wonder who came up with this idea. IT IS WASTING MY BRAIN CAPACITY)
8. Modern Math (I love this subject. I think I love any subject that is easy to understand, and can be applied in everyday life. I love all subjects that require calculating, but not physics, sadly.)
9. Additional Math (Confusing at first, but once you get the hang of it, it works with formulas, tons of it in fact. Love Add Math too. My dad made up a joke about this subject. Here goes
Dad:' What is Add Math?' Me: ' I don't know. ' Dad: ' Some kind of Math where you are required to Add, not subtract, divide or multiply.'
Haha, I know it's lame. But hey, a little lameness won't hurt. Especially when it is from someone you love. :P)
10. History (I just asked my sister what subjects I take for SPM. I guess form 4 life hasn't really seeped into me, even after 6 months. History. It's boring at some point but interesting at some point. My liking towards history is like a roller coaster, for I love it when i understand, and loathe it when I don't... I'm not the only one, am I?)
Yes, I have finished my so-called analysis for all the subject I'm taking this year and next year. Its just what I feel about it, I don't expect you readers to agree to everything I say. Even I disagree sometimes.
I don't consider my holidays boring, even though I don't frequent shopping malls or going out visiting my friends house. I have been used to reading and relaxing in many ways for my holidays. When I was younger, I used to think my house was a bloody jail. Basically my parents never allowed me to go out with my friends until I was 15. As I grew up, I don't think that not going out with friends is such a big deal anymore. I don't cry and whine like I used to last time when I was not allowed to, I just say okay, fine, maybe next time. (Haha, probably that's why I'll be the last one being asked out, for my friends know that I will give a negative reply.)
K-pop time! Haha, don't worry. I never forget this part.
Beast-비가 오는 날엔 (On rainy days)
This will be the song I'll search frantically in my brain before I sleep.
Ballads are my sleeping pills.
SECRET - 별빛달빛 (Starlight, Moonlight)
A very cute song indeed. Secret are going retro people! Love them now, so much better than their previous songs, though I loved their debut song.
f(x) - Pinocchio (Danger)
I thought the lyrics didn't make sense, not until I saw the translation. :) and yes, f(x) is not you add-math function. It's also a k-pop girl group.
Infinite - Can U Smile
I never liked their debut, Dashi dorawa, means come back again. But this ballad is enjoyable!
Bye! I hope you enjoyed my post today.
이젠 아프지 마 이젠 울지도 마 내가 너를 지켜준다고 너와 영원히 함께라고 사랑을 믿어봐 다신 두려워 마